A Water List

Shower  He is in our shower stall, kneeling, in shorts and a t-shirt. I stand naked, shivering. A flow of warm water spills off me onto him. A line of surgical tape squares covers tiny incisions that run up and down my legs, ankles to groin. Post-surgery instructions required the unwrapping of tight leg wraps, …

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Chasing Aurora

Chasing Aurora | A Mom’s Hope Journal Entry, 2011 Three of my sons pile into the car in response to my unprecedented late night invitation. I am in the back seat.We are driving north to see an Aurora Borealis, rare in the Colorado sky. The teen brothers chat strategy about which road to take for …

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Recursive

It’s all familiar hiss and dread, some days louder than others. “But, what if you fail?”

Releasing the Hoard

What I learned from watching “Hoarders” during the pandemic.
Part one.

Unmuted: The Necessary Chaos of Hearing Aids

Returning to the topic of hearing and listening here with a quick overview of the exhausting chaos that comes with learning to hear.  Amplified. The initial gift of restored hearing is both joy and misery wrapped with the same bow. I have a profound hearing impairment which impedes my ability to have normal conversations or …

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Disappearing Rooms

Come with me on a visit to my suburban Chicago childhood home and discover the unsettling disappearance of my bedroom. “We walk through room upon room of fresh paint and updated designs … ‘They knocked out this wall,’ she points and explains. ‘We wanted to make the whole space bigger.’ That wall once divided the kitchen from my …

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Rooted

“Will power and discipline alone can never fix your soul. Striving, pushing, and trying harder will not recover your life.”  – Adele Calhoun My proposed path winds through a gate and disappears into the rolling grass fields of a local 35 acre mountain retreat. In the gushing fall breeze, I wrestle with flapping paper and find my place on the …

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Hometown Street Signs

Come with me, back to my Midwest church girl roots with a visit to South Park Church in Park Ridge, Illinois. Loud music bounced wildly off the dark wood panels of a north side Chicago Irish pub.  Thirty years after high school graduation, we milled around tall bar tables, leaned in close and shouted catch-up …

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